Crush

Remember in elementary and middle school when you had a crush on someone, your heart would go giddy and you'd smile in the silliest way when you saw that person, but you'd still deny that you liked them, even to yourself?

Remember those foolish thoughts you'd have about them, hoping that if they were walking your way, it was because they wanted to talk to you, not their group of friends behind you?

Remember on Valentines day, your friend got a 'secret admirer' note, and you sifted through all your own Valentine cards hoping that you'd see one too, and you imagined that all the cards where people forgot to write their names on the preprinted salutation, that they were left that way on purpose-- from him (maybe)?

Remember when you finally started speaking to him, you ended up kicking him and telling him "Eeeew, go away" and then people started a rumor that you guys liked each other?

Remember how you were secretly pleased?

Remember how you guys went on to middle school and then high school and completely forgot?

Remember?

It's almost mortifying that I'm reliving these elementary school emotions.

Make
me
stop!