Sometimes I wonder

If my optimism is fake.
Or that since I force it so much that it's become real-- for better right?

But how freaking weird, since its origins weren't real.
It's like a barbie giving birth to a real live baby.

I mean things like that DO happen right, not the baby thing, but when you don't have an emotion and you fake it long enough, or you just fake something for so long that it becomes a reality?

Does this make sense?

But there are just some things you can't fake huh.

You would think something like optimism would be one of those things-- maybe I'm just effed up and crazy.